Wow. I just woke up. Mondays are like that, aren’t they? Except that today is awesome, because it’s May 1st! I used to go around with my mom and sister on May Day and drop off May baskets to family. Sometimes I really miss that. Other times, I think about how early we got up to do that, and I’m grateful for lazy days. XD I’m also excited because May is the month of my birthday! Still having a hard time wrapping my head around the fact that I’m gonna be 29 this year. I don’t feel it, that’s for sure.

I read once, and I don’t remember where, that people with Asperger’s were mentally two-thirds of their physical age. That makes me mentally closer to 19, and that feels right. I don’t know if it’s true or not, but it certainly makes sense to me.

I think about things that happened when I was little sometimes. I have a hard time remember things that far back. Memory loss can be a side effect of Prozac, from what I hear. I used to remember things much better. But one thought that occurs to me was Sunday mornings. On Sunday mornings, around 6am, before daily programming starts, you will generally find infomercials. And I remember waking up as a small child and going downstairs on Sunday mornings and turning on the TV and watching Billy Mays sell Oxy-Clean. I was so enraptured by Oxy-Clean infomercials. I wonder if that’s an Asperger’s thing, consistently watching things like that. I remember some mornings when it wasn’t Oxy-Clean and feeling almost offended, like my entire day was ruined. I dunno…

Anyways, welcome to May, everybody! I hope it starts getting warmer soon. I’m ready to not wear my long pajamas anymore. XD

<3 elegy